Hmmmmm

Lately I have been taking a long, hard, deep look at myself and some of the things going on around me. I have backed off in a lot of areas in life. A man I know once told me he is a very private person. I deeply respect that of him and have been working towards that in my own life as well. 

There are several people I know with Birthdays this time of year. I have tried to message each of them on their special day, to let them know I remembered it. One of them I have recently become back in contact with and when their day came- they couldn't believe I remembered it after all this time.  Some things a Pixie mind just never forgets.

Besides all of the Birthdays happening, there have been a few other monumental days occurring in and around my life. Anniversaries- both good and bad things, beginnings, endings, and although sometimes I may feel like shouting for joy or grieving a loss, I remain silent, maintaining my privacy.  It is but my own happiness or grief, to reflect upon.  Sometimes it is because I have a plan, sometimes there is no plan. But if it is not written, nor spoken, it can be changed and nobody shall ever know different.  

I still wear my heart on my sleeve for some. Still have no issue speaking openly, honestly and sincerely to those who are deserving of such, but for the most part I am respecting my own privacy as well as that of others.  With that I am discovering an unfamiliar sense of depth, solitude and inner peace of which cannot be rivaled...

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  1. Sherry SikstromJuly 14, 2012 at 10:09 PM

    However you find peace it is that you found it that makes the most difference

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  2. kestrelJuly 25, 2012 at 11:26 AM

    Congratulations! It's always a difficult journey, but the meadow at the stop in the trail is such a pretty place to rest for a while.

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  3. Dawn@Lighten Up!August 1, 2012 at 4:16 AM

    Wow. Can you send me some inner peace, Pixie? I've got the solitude thing down-pat.

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  4. Vapid VixenAugust 21, 2012 at 7:20 PM

    I could take a lesson from you on quiet dignity. Still haven't learned that one.

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