Pedestals require cleaning
Ok so in the past few posts and a few posts in other places, it seems that not only my own self confidence and worth has been shaken a bit. In some cases it feels like an earthquake measuring at least a 15 on the Richter scale has hit a few of us. Considering we are scattered geographically, sounds like the planet is about to bounce off the axis on which it turns. Maybe we had better put our seat belts on for this one!
In reading a post on Fern's blog, I noticed she can get rattled when she's around certain people. A bit of self descriptive perspective- my world is rattled at best, around one certain person vs. being around others. A bit of self directed thoughts of WTH? Why do we do this? and I may have found an answer- we put them on a pedestal of sorts and revere them as somehow knowing more, being better or ???? than we see ourselves.
My "Rattler" has shaken my confidence in myself and what I know. He has also taken the fun and passion out of something I loved, by always being the critic. Do this, don't do that, ever the watchful and scrutinizing eye.
I know what I know and I know what I have learned over the years. I also know when I am doing something just to do it for the sheer pleasure of doing it. Yet there he is. Watching, waiting, offering advice and making suggestions. Chipping away at my core. Nit picking and trying to help me improve, when all I wanted to do was enjoy myself and be in the moment. Nothing more, nothing less, yet even that is disturbed.
Makes a Pixie want to go kick the pedestal out from under those who torment us in ways such as this. Maybe they can land on it on their way down. For the record- I for one am not going to catch them when they fall either. They think highly enough of themselves, they shouldn't need the help of someone as diminutive as me. Shhhhh, you're pedestal is covered in something... Looks like your overinflated ego has popped and gotten all over it.
In reading a post on Fern's blog, I noticed she can get rattled when she's around certain people. A bit of self descriptive perspective- my world is rattled at best, around one certain person vs. being around others. A bit of self directed thoughts of WTH? Why do we do this? and I may have found an answer- we put them on a pedestal of sorts and revere them as somehow knowing more, being better or ???? than we see ourselves.
My "Rattler" has shaken my confidence in myself and what I know. He has also taken the fun and passion out of something I loved, by always being the critic. Do this, don't do that, ever the watchful and scrutinizing eye.
I know what I know and I know what I have learned over the years. I also know when I am doing something just to do it for the sheer pleasure of doing it. Yet there he is. Watching, waiting, offering advice and making suggestions. Chipping away at my core. Nit picking and trying to help me improve, when all I wanted to do was enjoy myself and be in the moment. Nothing more, nothing less, yet even that is disturbed.
Makes a Pixie want to go kick the pedestal out from under those who torment us in ways such as this. Maybe they can land on it on their way down. For the record- I for one am not going to catch them when they fall either. They think highly enough of themselves, they shouldn't need the help of someone as diminutive as me. Shhhhh, you're pedestal is covered in something... Looks like your overinflated ego has popped and gotten all over it.
to paraphrase 2 posts together , when you take back your own base of support and realise you belong right up there on your own pedestal ,one of two things happen.The other either moves over and gives you room where you belong ,or they get so busy trying to climb over you they knock themself of the pedestal, or down a staircase...
ReplyDeleteSometimes Fern, they nearly knock us off the pedestals in their attempts to climb over us, too. Tackle anyone and destroy everything in their path- like a bull in a china shop.
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