Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Grounded

There are so many things to be said about this one simple word.

There are flightless birds. They are grounded.

There is a sense of being 'grounded' and keeping your feet on the ground while your dreams take flight.

Of course there is being 'grounded' as punishment which surely we all were at some point when growing up.

I guess the context in which the word is used is where we each find it's meaning. Sometimes the meaning is found on a personal level.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Unsettled hurt

I recently had a run in with a former ex of mine.  While it was nice to see him again for a change, it was also something that shook up my day. The following day I was in a foul mood because of it and just grouchy with everyone in general.

I know the reasons why we are no longer together, yet when another friend of mine asked why I let it get to me? I had no idea what to tell him. I was a bit angry at *Bradley for some things that have yet to be resolved. The way it all ended, they probably likely never will be resolved to my liking or satisfaction.  Yet here I was pissed off at him still. I talked to another friend of mine later in the day, recounted all of the crap I had endured and waited for her confirmation that yep, he is an utter waste. What I got instead was another round of Why does this all still bother you?

Which got me to thinking- why does it bother me? Why do I let him get to me. I know he is a waste, nothing old or new about him surprises me, why should I care? So there are unresolved issues still lurking in the depths waiting to be hauled up to the surface. Let them go and leave them there. Do I really need someone else to confirm that he is a dolt? If they do, does that make him any less of a dolt or me a better person? No. So I shook it off and let it lie. Pushed the thick layer of dirt over it and buried it for good. He may never change, but I have because of everything. Him and his unresolved hurt can go straight to Hell.

*Name changed to protect the idiot innocent