Saturday, July 14, 2012

Hmmmmm

Lately I have been taking a long, hard, deep look at myself and some of the things going on around me. I have backed off in a lot of areas in life. A man I know once told me he is a very private person. I deeply respect that of him and have been working towards that in my own life as well. 

There are several people I know with Birthdays this time of year. I have tried to message each of them on their special day, to let them know I remembered it. One of them I have recently become back in contact with and when their day came- they couldn't believe I remembered it after all this time.  Some things a Pixie mind just never forgets.

Besides all of the Birthdays happening, there have been a few other monumental days occurring in and around my life. Anniversaries- both good and bad things, beginnings, endings, and although sometimes I may feel like shouting for joy or grieving a loss, I remain silent, maintaining my privacy.  It is but my own happiness or grief, to reflect upon.  Sometimes it is because I have a plan, sometimes there is no plan. But if it is not written, nor spoken, it can be changed and nobody shall ever know different.  

I still wear my heart on my sleeve for some. Still have no issue speaking openly, honestly and sincerely to those who are deserving of such, but for the most part I am respecting my own privacy as well as that of others.  With that I am discovering an unfamiliar sense of depth, solitude and inner peace of which cannot be rivaled...